Written by Christopher Tan Kok Jeong
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"We're losing the battle!" Screamed an angel... "fall back fall back!" you could hear the rushing of angels pass throughout heaven.. one third, of the angels fled to their last stronghold in heaven..
"I knew we shouldn't of listened to him.. how could we defeat the creator?"
"Shut up and wipe that attitude away or else we'll lose for sure!, no one knows the creator better than him!"
That was the day Our leader.. lost the war.. in all our misery, we were kicked out of the most pleasurable place in the universe.. to an undoubtedly strange, world, The creator named, Earth.
It was tough.... There was no pleasurable experiences for us who have experienced heaven on earth. I felt a deep remorse in my heart. After just one day of living on this earth.. I decided, to try my luck in the courts of God. I wanted to repent, to ask for forgiveness.. for my foolish act. How could I ever go against the Almighty one? How could me perceptions be changed so easily? I was defiantly not made to live in this place called earth.
My Decision was clear in my mind, My Heart throbbed with a beat of that a meteorite colliding... As I flew slowly and nervously towards the courts of Forgiveness.. many thoughts ran through my head.. I had no idea what was installed for me...
Chapter 2: The Repentance
"HALT!!" a sudden swoosh of various kinds of angel blades surrounded me.
"What brings you here traitor? demon.." Said Angelous, the guardsangel of God's kingdom...
"I have come to ask for forgiveness.. and repentance" I knew at any moment, I could be bounded in chains and thrown into the most hideous and dark place... where only torment lives... yet I stood as tall and strong as I could before the many blades.
Angelous grinned, he stood tall and proud, you could see righteousness shinning out of him, yet.. the grin gave me a distinct discomfort.. unlike Angelous, I have been stripped of my righteous feathers.. I was bare, barren, and naked... my wings were but of flesh... red and scorned by the punishment of the creator.. for all who betrayed him.
"Wait here... demon" Angelous walked off into the courts of the creator. What was held for me ahead was uncertainty, and fear went through my body.. as I shuddered at the thought of what could become of me. I felt a cold feeling travelling down my spine and slowly spreading to other parts of my body, I told myself, I must stay strong, I must be honest, I must show the creator how much I regret the actions I took against him in a very hectic battle.
It felt like eternity before Angelous returned, as he approached he looked frustrated and angry, but as all angels, he kept his majestic look, and the light that shone from the creator was shinning off him, almost blinding to me... what used to be perfect beauty in my eyes.
" The Creator says you may enter!" Angelous said with a somewhat frustrated voice.
As I walked into the court room, there were Elders sitting on seats, surrounding the area, with the creator in the judge seat, with his lamb next to him. I felt like I was in a coliseum, Never did I ever think in my entire life I would be in this place, I've always wondered why there was a court and so today, I have found out why.
"Estalious! You are brave to come back here after the treacherous war crimes you have committed in Heaven it self!" The thunderous voice of the creator said.
"Why have you returned? Do you not know what you have done cannot be reversed, you took the wrong path and there is no forgiveness for such act that you have done! Many brothers suffer because of your act! Explain to all of us why you have returned? do you do the same as your leader? to accuse those down on earth?"
"No, My Lord, I have come to beg for forgiveness..." I replied with a trembling voice
"I am truly regretful for what I did, I was deceived by the darkness, confused, and I truly really want to repent! I cannot live with out you my Lord!" I cried out before everyone.
With my head facing to the floor, not knowing what was coming next, I feared the judgement of the Creator, for I know our kind does not deserve such forgiveness, nor were we made to have forgiveness. After the corrupt things we have done.
" I cannot forgive you for your actions! you know that far better than anyone else here Estalious! many of your kind has come to this court room begging for forgiveness, but all know I cannot give. But in their hearts I know they truly do not really repent, but all they want to do is get out of the planet earth, as it seems tormenting to them. But they have played with my creations, and took pleasure in what I see as evil, so what makes you so much different Estalious?" You could hear many whispering in the court rooms, some even said, it's just another accuser of our brethren, some said he's a spy.. But I myself, knew deep in my heart.. I needed the creator.. I kept my head bowed down to the floor.. and cried, which no angel has done before for sadness, but only for joy.
"My Lord, if you would give me a chance, I will do anything to redeem myself, I truly wish not to be a demon, I would like to be by your side again. Yes, it is true I cannot stand the thought of being in the planet earth, but even if I had to stay there and resist to earn my salvation, then so be it!" I pleaded to the Creator.
What Happened next, was either the worst thing in my life, or the best. Who could decide, and who could really predict what was the Creator Himself thinking, as he turned to the Lamb, whom we called the lion. The decision was made, but nothing was spoken yet... You could hear people around the court, murmuring, wondering what the decision was.. I put my face to the ground again.. and stayed in that position, till the verdict was spoken, for only when it is spoken.. will it be executed.
"Estalious!"...
"What brings you here traitor? demon.." Said Angelous, the guardsangel of God's kingdom...
"I have come to ask for forgiveness.. and repentance" I knew at any moment, I could be bounded in chains and thrown into the most hideous and dark place... where only torment lives... yet I stood as tall and strong as I could before the many blades.
Angelous grinned, he stood tall and proud, you could see righteousness shinning out of him, yet.. the grin gave me a distinct discomfort.. unlike Angelous, I have been stripped of my righteous feathers.. I was bare, barren, and naked... my wings were but of flesh... red and scorned by the punishment of the creator.. for all who betrayed him.
"Wait here... demon" Angelous walked off into the courts of the creator. What was held for me ahead was uncertainty, and fear went through my body.. as I shuddered at the thought of what could become of me. I felt a cold feeling travelling down my spine and slowly spreading to other parts of my body, I told myself, I must stay strong, I must be honest, I must show the creator how much I regret the actions I took against him in a very hectic battle.
It felt like eternity before Angelous returned, as he approached he looked frustrated and angry, but as all angels, he kept his majestic look, and the light that shone from the creator was shinning off him, almost blinding to me... what used to be perfect beauty in my eyes.
" The Creator says you may enter!" Angelous said with a somewhat frustrated voice.
As I walked into the court room, there were Elders sitting on seats, surrounding the area, with the creator in the judge seat, with his lamb next to him. I felt like I was in a coliseum, Never did I ever think in my entire life I would be in this place, I've always wondered why there was a court and so today, I have found out why.
"Estalious! You are brave to come back here after the treacherous war crimes you have committed in Heaven it self!" The thunderous voice of the creator said.
"Why have you returned? Do you not know what you have done cannot be reversed, you took the wrong path and there is no forgiveness for such act that you have done! Many brothers suffer because of your act! Explain to all of us why you have returned? do you do the same as your leader? to accuse those down on earth?"
"No, My Lord, I have come to beg for forgiveness..." I replied with a trembling voice
"I am truly regretful for what I did, I was deceived by the darkness, confused, and I truly really want to repent! I cannot live with out you my Lord!" I cried out before everyone.
With my head facing to the floor, not knowing what was coming next, I feared the judgement of the Creator, for I know our kind does not deserve such forgiveness, nor were we made to have forgiveness. After the corrupt things we have done.
" I cannot forgive you for your actions! you know that far better than anyone else here Estalious! many of your kind has come to this court room begging for forgiveness, but all know I cannot give. But in their hearts I know they truly do not really repent, but all they want to do is get out of the planet earth, as it seems tormenting to them. But they have played with my creations, and took pleasure in what I see as evil, so what makes you so much different Estalious?" You could hear many whispering in the court rooms, some even said, it's just another accuser of our brethren, some said he's a spy.. But I myself, knew deep in my heart.. I needed the creator.. I kept my head bowed down to the floor.. and cried, which no angel has done before for sadness, but only for joy.
"My Lord, if you would give me a chance, I will do anything to redeem myself, I truly wish not to be a demon, I would like to be by your side again. Yes, it is true I cannot stand the thought of being in the planet earth, but even if I had to stay there and resist to earn my salvation, then so be it!" I pleaded to the Creator.
What Happened next, was either the worst thing in my life, or the best. Who could decide, and who could really predict what was the Creator Himself thinking, as he turned to the Lamb, whom we called the lion. The decision was made, but nothing was spoken yet... You could hear people around the court, murmuring, wondering what the decision was.. I put my face to the ground again.. and stayed in that position, till the verdict was spoken, for only when it is spoken.. will it be executed.
"Estalious!"...
Chapter 3: The Redemption
"The Creator cannot forgive you for such acts!" exclaimed the reader of verdicts,
then there was a pause. It felt like eternity, I couldn't believe what I heard, but I knew it was coming my way. I couldn't control the tears running from my eyes down my cheeks to the floor. But clinging on to hope, I kept my head bowed... every split second felt like an hour. Thoughts ran through my head, and I started to condemn myself for what foolish acts I have done.
"However... The Creator, being as Good and righteous as He is, in love and kindness, He has given you one way out, this way will not be an easy way. Especially for the likes of a demon, You must keep yourself as pure as possible till the coming time." A sense of relief came across me, it was as if a huge burden had been released from my chest, my emotions were mixed, but I was glad to hear that there was another way to earn my redemption.
"There will be a child born in the near future, on earth, and that child you must defend and live with, I will appoint a guardian angel over him, and you yourself will be within him. He will be a follower of mine, and go through much humanly suffering, which no supernatural being has felt. But under no circumstances must you corrupt him, but instead you must defend him, against the fallen brothers you once held high regards for, including the deceiver. Should you accept this, you should know that the journey will be tough, and you will feel everything he feels, sadness, hurt, anger, love, peace.. and other emotions.. Should you fail, your punishment will be greater than any of those who have turned against the Creator during the hectic war."
As he closed the scroll, my heart was throbbing, to have to live on this planet earth, was torturous enough, but to live in a human.. ones that my brothers torment down on earth. But if this was the only way to return to my Lord, I was willing to go through the torment and pains that is installed.
As I lifted my head, I shouted, "Yes, yes LORD! I will do as you have said. I will accept this contract! I have regretted my actions that have harmed the heavens, But you most awesome and magnificent one, have given me a second chance, I will not fail!"
"Very Well Estalious, you must sign this scroll... and your journey will begin" holding up the scroll, the creator pointed to a part of the scroll which distinctively had a shape of my hand. It was as if He knew I would sign it and specially customized the contract to me. I had no idea what life would be like, once I signed this, would I lose my wings? where would I end up? who would I be with? what kind of person would this be?... But I knew I had to do it..
My Hand felt heavy, as if some one was holding it down tight, but using all my will power, I started to lift it up.. my hand was nearing the scroll, in just less than a second everything would change, I knew I wouldn't see this place for a very long time..
" STOP!!!" a large bang was heard in the courts...There stood Stalious, he was large and strong and I could sense the amount of hatred he had towards us demons..
"How could you let this low life get a second chance my Lord?! can you not remember how much torment they brought? what if they were to do the same but as a human! wouldn't it be worst?"
"Do you question my judgment Stalious? I have made this decision and I know what will be of him, trust what I do, lest you stray afar like the Deceiver"
At that point, I could not stand it, I quickly pushed my hand into the scroll and in a sudden blink of an eye, I was cast into a bright light, swrilling down, further and faster.. I felt like i was falling.. and I did not know where I would end up...
Then suddenly darkness.
Chapter 4: The Birth
"What's this? have I fallen into the dark pit of torment? but it doesn't feel cold.. it feels very warm. Where am I?" I asked myself.
I was scared, yet I was in complete comfort, I had no idea where I was, but I most certainly knew it wasn't a place of torment. I could feel the warmth of some sort of jelly like material surrounding me, I felt like I was in some sort of protective bubble... the gel like liquid caressed my skin gently. It felt like an embrace that none could express, all one could feel is safe and comfortable..
Day after day, I was stuck in this jelly type of substance.. I could feel some strange mushy things entering into my abdominal part of my body.. It was a strange sensation. But very satisfying.. Then it dawned on me, perhaps I am bound and trapped in a dark place quickly, I asked this body I was in to start kicking to escape.. frantically it was kicking.. but in no avail, the jelly type substance had over powered us. Eventually I just gave up, and told myself, if this is the darkness it's not that bad, took time to enjoy it.
*SNAP* I felt something snap off... the jelly became like quick sand, sucking this body further and further down, I felt the pain the body felt, the sudden feeling of lack of air, it was strange, then we were sucked out until there was some light... the light was shinning through a very small hole, in all my hope I told the body, you gotta survive this, to get to the light, the thing that I have missed the most! squeezing out and enduring the pain and joy at the same time, the head of this body popped out...
I could feel the cool air swiftly blowing over the head, and i could see light for the first time in a very long dark period. Suddenly something grabbed my head, the grasp was so strong, that I couldn't shake it off, with my body still stuck in the warm jelly like place, I felt like I was paralyzed.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" a loud scream could be heard, and at last I was free from the bondage! The cold air took it's tol on me when my body started to shiver, the bosy started to cry, in the most unworthy manner, screaming and crying. But I could understand how it felt. Being so cold and all.
But Just as I thought we were free, Bam! we were tied in bondage again, this time it felt like the wings of an angel, wrapping over your entire body, I thought to myself.. Maybe this is the place of torment! I tried to help this body escape from our entanglement, but with no avail. powerless, I felt, the body grow weak.. and weaker, and then, darkness once again, the Body has collapsed of exhaused and somehow shut down... I was afraid, I thought I have failed to protect. Worste of all, I didn't know what the creator would do to me..
I felt like I've failed 2 times, and there was a worst punishment waiting for me. I felt much grief and sadness,
"Estallious..." a voice said in a distance.
"Estallious!"
how could someone on earth know my name? what is this strange voice...
I was scared, yet I was in complete comfort, I had no idea where I was, but I most certainly knew it wasn't a place of torment. I could feel the warmth of some sort of jelly like material surrounding me, I felt like I was in some sort of protective bubble... the gel like liquid caressed my skin gently. It felt like an embrace that none could express, all one could feel is safe and comfortable..
Day after day, I was stuck in this jelly type of substance.. I could feel some strange mushy things entering into my abdominal part of my body.. It was a strange sensation. But very satisfying.. Then it dawned on me, perhaps I am bound and trapped in a dark place quickly, I asked this body I was in to start kicking to escape.. frantically it was kicking.. but in no avail, the jelly type substance had over powered us. Eventually I just gave up, and told myself, if this is the darkness it's not that bad, took time to enjoy it.
*SNAP* I felt something snap off... the jelly became like quick sand, sucking this body further and further down, I felt the pain the body felt, the sudden feeling of lack of air, it was strange, then we were sucked out until there was some light... the light was shinning through a very small hole, in all my hope I told the body, you gotta survive this, to get to the light, the thing that I have missed the most! squeezing out and enduring the pain and joy at the same time, the head of this body popped out...
I could feel the cool air swiftly blowing over the head, and i could see light for the first time in a very long dark period. Suddenly something grabbed my head, the grasp was so strong, that I couldn't shake it off, with my body still stuck in the warm jelly like place, I felt like I was paralyzed.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" a loud scream could be heard, and at last I was free from the bondage! The cold air took it's tol on me when my body started to shiver, the bosy started to cry, in the most unworthy manner, screaming and crying. But I could understand how it felt. Being so cold and all.
But Just as I thought we were free, Bam! we were tied in bondage again, this time it felt like the wings of an angel, wrapping over your entire body, I thought to myself.. Maybe this is the place of torment! I tried to help this body escape from our entanglement, but with no avail. powerless, I felt, the body grow weak.. and weaker, and then, darkness once again, the Body has collapsed of exhaused and somehow shut down... I was afraid, I thought I have failed to protect. Worste of all, I didn't know what the creator would do to me..
I felt like I've failed 2 times, and there was a worst punishment waiting for me. I felt much grief and sadness,
"Estallious..." a voice said in a distance.
"Estallious!"
how could someone on earth know my name? what is this strange voice...
Chapter 5: Realization
"You're not in the place of torment" said a voice in the distance.
"Who are you?" I asked him
"I am Visoth, the guardian angel of this child"
"If I am not in a place of torment, why must I continuously be bonded?"
"This is the process of birth, Estalious, I was told that you would come into the earth again today, you have been missing for over five thousand years."
I couldn't believe what I heard, five thousand years, passing like a blink of an eye, truly the creator is most gracious, all this time I had a strange feeling, that he was punishing me for my impatience by putting my hand onto the scroll. But I didn't know what was going to happen, I knew nothing about the human body. All I know is that I am in one, what will this journey be like? and what was going to happen next? The thought of living on earth was bad enough, it brought a shudder through my wings.
I then heard a strange voice, not angel like, it was soft and sweet, along with a very deep and powerful voice, they spoke of a name, to give their child. It made me ponder, did they know I was in here? or would I be so insignificant, that no one in this world would take notice of me...
Finally after 1 hour, "We'll call him, Gaz!"
Gaz? what kind of name is that I thought to myself! I would have given this magnificent body a more majestic name, such as Darlicka, or Verlisotious! But Gaz?... But I wasn't in my power to change anything...
As time past, I could tell Gaz had no idea I was living in him, I came to a conclusion that humans are just all about games and playing, that's all they ever did play play eat eat, I felt like these humans had no purpose in this life! But there was one strange emotion they had, the feeling was as if the creator himself had given you the most secure embrace in the world, it was a warm feeling, that would make a heart beat faster and slower at the same time, It brought much comfort to the soul... I had no idea what it was, but the feeling was one that drew both me and Gaz to love these strange giant beings.
"Estalious, Estalious... DO you really think human life is this simple?" asked Visoth,
"This is the first stage, I have been with over three thousand humans, being a guardian for each, their motives and their pains, what they go through...is very different. I'll tell you this, what you experience now, will be very different in years to come, don't think that this life is all about games, don't be so naive or you might just end up failing, your demon comrades, are just one of the challenges in this life, be prepared, for the biggest battles in your entire life!"Visoth's face was very vicious, and serious when he was saying all these things, you could see the righteous fire that burned through his eyes, his wings were hardened like armour, and I could sense a slight amount of holy wrath in his speech..
from that day on, I knew this was just the peace before the storm...
Chapter 6: Strange Sensations
Time passed, regardless of what Visoth said, I still thought my theory of all play was correct, Gaz didn't seem to do anything productive in my point of view, everyday he'd build blocks of different colours and make something that reassembles a small cube, and played with these yellow coloured humans. Though i thought that this was such a pointless life. Though, strangely enough, doing all these foolish things actually brought a great sense of comfort to me.I suppose these were human emotions, I felt somewhat happiness and joy, i couldn't express this feeling i felt from this boy, Gaz..
It was like, your heart pumped faster, and the blood rushed throughout your body, giving you this great sense of happiness, and it starts to become more and more joyous as time goes by, till you wished it never ended. I suppose I could compare it to the time I used to dance and sing and play before the creator, where everything was bliss and good.
But that time was long past, if this was all there was to human life, I can say I don't have a clue what the creator meant by it's not going to be easy, because, it feels like life's going to be a breeze!
However, I was proven wrong, I felt the presence of my fallen brothers grow stronger, as time came to pass, the familiar ravaging sense, for chaos and disorder became more and more distinct, I could sense how much more corrupt they have become since the fall, and the stench of the evil aura coming from them was strong, so strong that one could even smell it from a mile away.
*clinggg* the familiar sound, that I thought I'd never hear again, a sound of an angel blade meeting with another blade, it was the sound of warfare! as I looked around, I saw nothing, but the sound was so loud and distinct that it felt as if it was right next to me. Suddenly I heard a great cry of strength.
"ARGHH!", at first I couldn't quite decipher the voice i had heard heard, But as more blades started to clash with one another, I had figured out who it was that was screaming earlier, it was visoth! This meant only one thing, that my fallen brothers have arrived and I was very sure they were not here to say hello to me.
The sound of blades clashing among one another continued for hours, yet during this time, it seemed as if Gaz was in complete peace, he was sleeping in his mothers arms so peacefully. I was thinking to myself, these humans are crazy! how can they sleep in such a crazed and outrageous sound of war! then it dawned upon me. If they can't see me, it's most likely they can't hear me too, thus this war was only for us angels to hear, how blessed the humans are, I thought to myself.
*swoosh* suddenly a fiery dart flew across the room, "what was this?" I thought to myself. I read the inscriptions on the dart, it read out, brokenness, lust, death, murder, cheating, chaos. Then in the next second, 5 more darts flew pass, just missing Gaz by a millimeter, I knew I could not let these darts reach Gaz or else his life might be in jeopardy, I decided to take out my weapon to deflect the darts from touching Gaz, I remembered clearly what the Creator told me, and I wasn't keen in failing Him two times in a row!
"Gotchya!" I shouted as I hit the last dart away from Gaz, I was pretty proud of myself, I have successfully parried all the darts that were set out to destroy Gaz's life.
"Hahaha bring it on! nothing is going pass me" I said cheerfully.
But just as I said that, I heard a snicker, and a voice which sounded so coarse and demented say," You haven't won any battle Estalious! double traitor, first to the creator now to our Master!The great deceiver.."
"Who are you?!" I demanded,
The voice faded into the dark, snickering...
As I turned around I understood what he meant by I haven't won the battle, the darts were all across the room, and one of them managed to hit the leg of Gaz's mother...
What doom was in front? I had no idea what power these new and very strange darts held, but I knew nothing good would come out of it...
Inscribed into the dart was"Sickness, Death, hurt, pain.." I couldn't imagine what the future held for Gaz and his mother...
Chapter 7: Is this for real?!
Since the day of the battle, where the strange fiery darts flew pass, many things has happened, but thankfully nothing bad has come to pass. It's been several years since that battle, and Gaz was now growing in size, strange thing these humans are, able to grow taller and larger by each passing day, and the giants, that were once around us, now seemed to be the same size as us...
Gaz was unique in his look, no angel or human have I ever seen have such mystical and charming features, he grew up to be half a head taller than most people, with broad shoulders, his body was slim, but not as a girl, but like the creators, not what humans, called "skin and bones" but instead fit and perfect. His hair was slightly wavy, brownish black, that grew up to shoulder length. His skin, was as smooth as a emerald crystal surface, and glistened like a polished crystal, it was not dark, nor was it pale, but it was fair. But the most distinct, and unique feature of Gaz was his pearly grey eyes, like one of a wolf's fur. It mesmerized even the fallen ones.
Gaz was one who prayed daily to the Creator, he danced and worshiped him before the alter,and even gained some latent power, through the favour of His most High. But these powers were still hidden from Gaz. The creator forbid me to see the powers He had placed in him, but instead told me, that I would need to live on with the boy, and find it out step by step, as the boy did.
Time passed and still I saw nothing of the power that was given to him, neither did it seem that Gaz was aware that he had been given some power from the creator. It has already been nineteen years since the day, I was given this chance of repentance and I've learned much about humans, yet, they never seize to suprise me.It seems Visoth was right and I was wrong, humans didn't live a life of play, but instead it has been a mixture or work and play.
Now, it came a time where Gaz had to go to this place which humans call, university. I never understood why humans go to these places, to be honest, I think it's all nonsense, They should just listen to the creator... But it seems that they too, like me, have fallen. Only Difference is, the creator loved them so much, He gave them a redeeming sacrifice. Something I always envy, the death of the lion...
"Hey, what's you're name?" Gaz asked some other human, in the class.
"I'm Dennis! and you?" the other boy replied.
"The names Gaz, pleased to meet you!" Gaz said cheerfully.
Dennis, was quite a small person, he was thin, and had short spiky, blond hair. His face was somewhat roundish and his cheeks were Rosy red, he was slightly tanned, and had big, blue eyes... But something about him seemed a miss to me, I felt the strong presence of my fallen brothers surrounding him, never the less, he seemed to be a very cheerful and happy person. Unlike Gaz, he had no guardian angel. Come to think about it, I have noticed that there are many people in this world, walking around without a guardian angel. I asked Visoth about this, but each time the topic was brought up to him, it fell on deaf ears.
Eventually, Gaz and Dennis became the best of friends. Every time, Gaz came near to Dennis, I was happy, the feeling brought much joy to Gaz, and of course in turn, this happiness traveled into my body... The feeling of the heart, pumping faster, and tingly sensations traveling through to the wings, making me feel as if I could soar the skies again...
However, as each day passed, I felt less and less comfortable, though the feeling of joy was there, I felt some heavy burden on my own self, it was like chains started to bound me, and I was unable to move, walls enclosed around me, constraining me, and sheer pressure came crushing down on my head... I knew something was wrong, something was being changing, it wasn't like any other feeling I felt before. The burden got heavier each time, Gaz saw Dennis...
"Hey Gaz, This is what we call a club, We can find all the hottest chicks here"
"You sure about that Dennis? the music is so loud, and I feel really shy around all these girls"
"Don't worry about it Gaz, let me show you the pleasure of life, drink this... it's called After shock"
"You sure this stuff is safe to drink man?"
"Just do it, it'll help you to relax, trust me man! I've been so good to you these past months, don't tell me you can't trust me now?"
I could feel that Gaz felt uncomfortable, he shifted his body in uneasiness, thoughts ran through his head, like, "He's right he's my best buddy, and he's been taking me out and taking care of me a lot recently", "But this is not right, this drink smells weird", "Should I should I not! What should I do!"... I screamed to Gaz, "Why don't you just ask the creator! since He's so close to you!!!" But Obviously he couldn't hear me... He never could.
"Alright Dennis I'll trust you on this one"
Gaz picked up the drink, just before he put it onto his lips, I saw a fallen brother.. in fact, I saw more than a fallen brother, I saw a huge group of them inside the club, this is bad I thought to myself... it didn't strike me at first, but Visoth was missing, I looked around and I could see him fighting off five other fallen brothers... The burden I felt earlier had seemed to become so heavy that I fell to my knees... Then all a sudden..
* Gulp*
I could see double, and my vision became slightly distorted.. "What is this??" I thought to myself... suddenly I was surrounded by my Fallen brothers, the next thing I heard were giggles of girls, and a huge group of deep voiced people laughing...
"Estalious! doesn't this feel great...?"
"Who are you?" as I struggled to keep my focus, but at no avail, I could only see a wavy water like image of the person speaking
"Why don't you come back to us?" I heard another speaking
"Yea, we've found a great sense of fun and joy, these humans are just like toys, their so easy to deceive.."
"No..." I said, with a very weak voice..
"I will never come back to you all..."
"fine by us!!" I was suddenly struck on the side... the pain was excruciating, I knew these were my fallen brothers, they pushed me around, and the music got louder, I felt useless..
"Estalious! GET A HOLD OF YOUR SELF! you need to help me..." I heard a voice say, as I was hit towards the floor then thrown across the room...
"Estalious!!!" It was Visoth!
I tried to pick myself up.. But the drink that Gaz took, had rendered me useless, I couldn't focus right..and the burden was still there. My Fallen brothers, continuously mocked me, and battered me... They smashed me into this strange neon glowing wall.. My vision became more blurred, then suddenly.. darkness...
"No! ESTALIOUSsssss!!!"
Chapter 8: The Real After Shock
Even though it was so dark, I could continuously hear my fallen brothers mockery, and feel the continuous pain i that ran through my entire body.. I tried to regain my consciousness. But Just as I managed to pull my self up to my feet, I collapsed. The last thing I heard was Dennis laughing at Gaz, saying,"now you know why we call it after shock".
"Gaz... Gaz..."
"huh what happened?"
"Hey Gaz... that was a great night we had"
"who are you? where's Dennis?! "
"I'm Crystal... can't you remember me?"
Confusion was running through Gaz, he had no idea what he did last night...
"I can't remember a thing! All I remember is I picked up a drink called after shock, danced a while.. then.. nothing! "
"Oh Gaz... How can you not remember? we danced.. then we got together to eat some mid night snack.. and you know, you came on to me and you know..."
"know what?"
Crystal slipped out of the bed, her body was slim and slick, her hair was long and brown, her eyes were hazelnut. Everything about her was so voluptuous. Gaz was caught in awe, staring up and down her body, head to toe... Then he snapped!
"Oh SHIT!"
"What's the matter Gaz, love?"
"no way.. I didn't, we didn't" Gaz Panicked, as he slowly looked under the blanket.
"mm hmm" Crystal hummed in a very happy tone.
Gaz slapped himself, and grabbed his head, I felt the frustration running through his head, it was like the mixed feeling or regret, and not knowing what to do, Gaz said to himself, "What have I done.. what have I done, this is terrible!" I couldn't comprehend what he meant, what was so bad about this? and why was it a bad thing? isn't this what humans do?
"Crystal... I cannot do these things.. this is wrong..."Gaz Said looking down in shame.
you could see Crystals face drop, "I see" she said softly..
There was something about her that I couldn't see through, as I watched, I realised she too had an angel guarding her that looked similar to visoth, just, this angel seemed to be molded too have a body just like Crystals... beautiful it was indeed..
as I observed Crystal, her body started to shudder, and that cheerful voice had seemed to disappear, I spotted a tear, dropping from her face, it swiftly cut through the air, and splashed as it hit the floor. She was sniffing, as more tears fell from her downcast face. It brought back the same distinct, sad feeling I had when I was before the creator..
"What's wrong Crystal?" Gaz said softly,
"It's nothing Gaz" She replied as she sniffed,
"I'm sorry, I just drank a little too much last night, Dennis, said it's good stuff, but I didn't expect to end up here, and doing you know what.." Gaz explained
in a quivering voice Crystal said, "I understand..."
As she wiped the tears away, She lifted her head, with a her puffy eyes, she smiled, with the light gleaming off her face. Crystal stretched out her arm, in a gestures humans do, to greet one another.
"Hi I'm Crystal! I'm 18, and you are?" she asked in a cheerful yet, shaky voice.
Gaz smiled, and did the same, connected each others hands and shaking it.
"The name is Gaz, I'm 19, it's a pleasure to meet you Crystal"
Gaz blushed, and turned away. He was shy, and flushed, his heart was starting to beat faster and faster... I cold feel his heart having a very strong connection with this girl, like two polar ends meeting together, the attraction was very strong...
"what the matter Gaz?" Crystal asked, but just as she asked, she looked down and realised she had been standing there naked.
"oh oh!"
Her face turned red like a cherry, she rushed to get her garments, and rushed into the toilet... what a beauty, I thought to myself, I still couldn't understand what Gaz had done, that was so bad..
I turned to Visoth, and asked him what happened last night, but he did not speak to me, instead, he spat in my face and shouted,
"you demons are so useless!"
"What? what did I do wrong, I was being slaughtered by the others"
"That's exactly what you did wrong, you should've been fighting your brothers long before any of this could happen! but you just stood there, like a freaking pillar of salt!"
"Hey now Visoth, chill down with the insults... I didn't realise my brothers were around..."
"OR MAYBE, ESTAILOUS, YOU DID REALISE, AND YOU WANTED THIS TO HAPPEN! You No Winged Fool!"
"What did you call me? you have no right to insult me, more over NO RIGHT TO SAY I cooperated with any of them! you yourself saw how I was beaten up!"
"Could've been an act.. you are just a demon like the rest, i don't get how the creator could trust you, Maybe I should rid of you myself!" He pulled out his blade, and threw himself toward me, I barley dodged the attack, which left me with a small thin lined wound... As the blood was slowly leaking, Visoth lunged forward for another attack, once again I dodged it. "Stop it Visoth! I refuse to fight!" With his burning eyes, He took another swipe at me. I jumped in the air and somersaulted backwards, evading his attack once again.
"Look visoth you need to stop and get a grip of yourself! you're a well seasoned Guardian An...."
"Gotchya!" I thought I'd never feel the pain once again, as the blood fell from my wing... the excruciating pain travelled through my body.. I could see and sense the anger Visoth had towards me, I looked down in defeat.
"Do what you must..."
Visoth pulled the sword out and lifted his arm above his head, ready to finish me off, but just as that happened, I heard a strange sound *ping* "some one had blocked his attack?" I thought to myself.
"You must stop this visoth, The Creator placed you as a guardian angel, and gave Esatlious a second chance, not so you could kill him, and disobey our order!"
"Stay out of this Lizzy..."
"Drop it visoth! don't make me use my paralytic bullet to put you down!"
Visoth, looked disappointed, and retracted his sword. Turned around, and walked back to Gaz's side.
"Thanks " I said, in a faint voice of relief.
"Don't mention it, not that I like you demons, just, I'm sure the creator gave you a special purpose in life" She replied...
As I turned my head to look at her, I was struck with awe, there she was a beauty to behold, it was Crystals guardian angel. Her face was pure white, and her cheeks had a crimson red blushes, her eyes, were big, and purple, with long eye lashes, her wings were in perfect condition, they shaped like a diamond, and shone like the holiness of the Creator...
"Are you alright?" she asked
I shook my head to come back to myself, "Yea I am, thanks"
She turned and walked back to Crystal in the toilet...
I returned to Gaz, and layed in his body once again...
"Estalious..." Visoth said in a low toned voice,
"yesterday, was a bad day, Gaz lost his purity seal..."
"What do you mean..?" I replied..
"it's exactly what I mean, But not only did he lose it, He made Crystal lose it too.."
I looked down, I felt like a failure, and understood why Visoth was so angry at me.
"You know Estalious, this failure is unacceptable" He said, with a sigh.
"What will become of Gaz now, He broke the law of the creator..?"
"Nothing bad will come to him, but he has opened a door, I tried to keep sealed tight as possible... this will be an easy path for your fallen brothers to get to"
"Guys! HELP!" there was a scream from the toilet, Visoth rushed to the toilet,
"Stay put Estalious, STAY PUT!" He Commanded me.
I heard many shouting and screaming, I heard the sound of my fallen brother, laughing as the were fighting, like psychopaths...
Lizzy flew backwards out of the toilet smashing against another neon wall, much like the one I did in the club... as she fell towards the ground, I felt useless, I wanted to help, but I knew if I left Gaz here, He would be in much trouble...
"GAZ! GAZ!!!" I screamed trying to get him up, But to no avail.. then I saw my fallen brethren thrown themselves onto lizzy, I could not take any more of their unrighteousness, I screamed Gaz's name once again. A thought suddenly came through to his mind, I realised he has some how heard me, so I kept telling him to go to the toilet, some how or another, I felt some sort of connection with Gaz, in thoughts and speech, for the first time, yet I knew Gaz couldn't hear me, just feel what I was saying.
"Crystal! Crystal! you ok in there" Gaz shouted..
There was no reply, it was just all dead silence to Gaz, quickly he jumped out of the bed, and rushed towards the toilet. as he approach the toilet, I reached out and grabbed Lizzy from the my fallen brethren, They hissed at me, calling me the double traitor, the outcast beyond all..
"Crystal!" Gaz said in shock, She seemed motionless on the floor, Gaz picked her up and quickly rushed towards the bed and laid her down, rummaging through his cloths on the floor, he found his trousers, and quickly called 999...
just as he did this my Fallen brethren disappeared, snickering... Lizzy also laid unconscious, as I was holding her.
"Pass her here Estalious..." Visoth said,
as I gently passed her to him, He vanished, for a moment and returned in another second..
"What did you do to her?!" I asked in despair
Visoth grinned..
"Why you little!" I threw a punch towards him and he grabbed it, throwing me across the room on to the floor, I heard my wing crack.
"You demons are all a like.. despisable.. and pathetic.."
"Gaz... Gaz..."
"huh what happened?"
"Hey Gaz... that was a great night we had"
"who are you? where's Dennis?! "
"I'm Crystal... can't you remember me?"
Confusion was running through Gaz, he had no idea what he did last night...
"I can't remember a thing! All I remember is I picked up a drink called after shock, danced a while.. then.. nothing! "
"Oh Gaz... How can you not remember? we danced.. then we got together to eat some mid night snack.. and you know, you came on to me and you know..."
"know what?"
Crystal slipped out of the bed, her body was slim and slick, her hair was long and brown, her eyes were hazelnut. Everything about her was so voluptuous. Gaz was caught in awe, staring up and down her body, head to toe... Then he snapped!
"Oh SHIT!"
"What's the matter Gaz, love?"
"no way.. I didn't, we didn't" Gaz Panicked, as he slowly looked under the blanket.
"mm hmm" Crystal hummed in a very happy tone.
Gaz slapped himself, and grabbed his head, I felt the frustration running through his head, it was like the mixed feeling or regret, and not knowing what to do, Gaz said to himself, "What have I done.. what have I done, this is terrible!" I couldn't comprehend what he meant, what was so bad about this? and why was it a bad thing? isn't this what humans do?
"Crystal... I cannot do these things.. this is wrong..."Gaz Said looking down in shame.
you could see Crystals face drop, "I see" she said softly..
There was something about her that I couldn't see through, as I watched, I realised she too had an angel guarding her that looked similar to visoth, just, this angel seemed to be molded too have a body just like Crystals... beautiful it was indeed..
as I observed Crystal, her body started to shudder, and that cheerful voice had seemed to disappear, I spotted a tear, dropping from her face, it swiftly cut through the air, and splashed as it hit the floor. She was sniffing, as more tears fell from her downcast face. It brought back the same distinct, sad feeling I had when I was before the creator..
"What's wrong Crystal?" Gaz said softly,
"It's nothing Gaz" She replied as she sniffed,
"I'm sorry, I just drank a little too much last night, Dennis, said it's good stuff, but I didn't expect to end up here, and doing you know what.." Gaz explained
in a quivering voice Crystal said, "I understand..."
As she wiped the tears away, She lifted her head, with a her puffy eyes, she smiled, with the light gleaming off her face. Crystal stretched out her arm, in a gestures humans do, to greet one another.
"Hi I'm Crystal! I'm 18, and you are?" she asked in a cheerful yet, shaky voice.
Gaz smiled, and did the same, connected each others hands and shaking it.
"The name is Gaz, I'm 19, it's a pleasure to meet you Crystal"
Gaz blushed, and turned away. He was shy, and flushed, his heart was starting to beat faster and faster... I cold feel his heart having a very strong connection with this girl, like two polar ends meeting together, the attraction was very strong...
"what the matter Gaz?" Crystal asked, but just as she asked, she looked down and realised she had been standing there naked.
"oh oh!"
Her face turned red like a cherry, she rushed to get her garments, and rushed into the toilet... what a beauty, I thought to myself, I still couldn't understand what Gaz had done, that was so bad..
I turned to Visoth, and asked him what happened last night, but he did not speak to me, instead, he spat in my face and shouted,
"you demons are so useless!"
"What? what did I do wrong, I was being slaughtered by the others"
"That's exactly what you did wrong, you should've been fighting your brothers long before any of this could happen! but you just stood there, like a freaking pillar of salt!"
"Hey now Visoth, chill down with the insults... I didn't realise my brothers were around..."
"OR MAYBE, ESTAILOUS, YOU DID REALISE, AND YOU WANTED THIS TO HAPPEN! You No Winged Fool!"
"What did you call me? you have no right to insult me, more over NO RIGHT TO SAY I cooperated with any of them! you yourself saw how I was beaten up!"
"Could've been an act.. you are just a demon like the rest, i don't get how the creator could trust you, Maybe I should rid of you myself!" He pulled out his blade, and threw himself toward me, I barley dodged the attack, which left me with a small thin lined wound... As the blood was slowly leaking, Visoth lunged forward for another attack, once again I dodged it. "Stop it Visoth! I refuse to fight!" With his burning eyes, He took another swipe at me. I jumped in the air and somersaulted backwards, evading his attack once again.
"Look visoth you need to stop and get a grip of yourself! you're a well seasoned Guardian An...."
"Gotchya!" I thought I'd never feel the pain once again, as the blood fell from my wing... the excruciating pain travelled through my body.. I could see and sense the anger Visoth had towards me, I looked down in defeat.
"Do what you must..."
Visoth pulled the sword out and lifted his arm above his head, ready to finish me off, but just as that happened, I heard a strange sound *ping* "some one had blocked his attack?" I thought to myself.
"You must stop this visoth, The Creator placed you as a guardian angel, and gave Esatlious a second chance, not so you could kill him, and disobey our order!"
"Stay out of this Lizzy..."
"Drop it visoth! don't make me use my paralytic bullet to put you down!"
Visoth, looked disappointed, and retracted his sword. Turned around, and walked back to Gaz's side.
"Thanks " I said, in a faint voice of relief.
"Don't mention it, not that I like you demons, just, I'm sure the creator gave you a special purpose in life" She replied...
As I turned my head to look at her, I was struck with awe, there she was a beauty to behold, it was Crystals guardian angel. Her face was pure white, and her cheeks had a crimson red blushes, her eyes, were big, and purple, with long eye lashes, her wings were in perfect condition, they shaped like a diamond, and shone like the holiness of the Creator...
"Are you alright?" she asked
I shook my head to come back to myself, "Yea I am, thanks"
She turned and walked back to Crystal in the toilet...
I returned to Gaz, and layed in his body once again...
"Estalious..." Visoth said in a low toned voice,
"yesterday, was a bad day, Gaz lost his purity seal..."
"What do you mean..?" I replied..
"it's exactly what I mean, But not only did he lose it, He made Crystal lose it too.."
I looked down, I felt like a failure, and understood why Visoth was so angry at me.
"You know Estalious, this failure is unacceptable" He said, with a sigh.
"What will become of Gaz now, He broke the law of the creator..?"
"Nothing bad will come to him, but he has opened a door, I tried to keep sealed tight as possible... this will be an easy path for your fallen brothers to get to"
"Guys! HELP!" there was a scream from the toilet, Visoth rushed to the toilet,
"Stay put Estalious, STAY PUT!" He Commanded me.
I heard many shouting and screaming, I heard the sound of my fallen brother, laughing as the were fighting, like psychopaths...
Lizzy flew backwards out of the toilet smashing against another neon wall, much like the one I did in the club... as she fell towards the ground, I felt useless, I wanted to help, but I knew if I left Gaz here, He would be in much trouble...
"GAZ! GAZ!!!" I screamed trying to get him up, But to no avail.. then I saw my fallen brethren thrown themselves onto lizzy, I could not take any more of their unrighteousness, I screamed Gaz's name once again. A thought suddenly came through to his mind, I realised he has some how heard me, so I kept telling him to go to the toilet, some how or another, I felt some sort of connection with Gaz, in thoughts and speech, for the first time, yet I knew Gaz couldn't hear me, just feel what I was saying.
"Crystal! Crystal! you ok in there" Gaz shouted..
There was no reply, it was just all dead silence to Gaz, quickly he jumped out of the bed, and rushed towards the toilet. as he approach the toilet, I reached out and grabbed Lizzy from the my fallen brethren, They hissed at me, calling me the double traitor, the outcast beyond all..
"Crystal!" Gaz said in shock, She seemed motionless on the floor, Gaz picked her up and quickly rushed towards the bed and laid her down, rummaging through his cloths on the floor, he found his trousers, and quickly called 999...
just as he did this my Fallen brethren disappeared, snickering... Lizzy also laid unconscious, as I was holding her.
"Pass her here Estalious..." Visoth said,
as I gently passed her to him, He vanished, for a moment and returned in another second..
"What did you do to her?!" I asked in despair
Visoth grinned..
"Why you little!" I threw a punch towards him and he grabbed it, throwing me across the room on to the floor, I heard my wing crack.
"You demons are all a like.. despisable.. and pathetic.."
Chapter 9: Wrath of love
"ARGH!" I screamed in agony, as the pain through my body, I tried to get back up, I channeled all my strength to my legs and knees, to get back up. after a few moments I managed to get back on my feet, with pain traveling throughout my body, I could barely see straight. My wings weighed like two moons, covered with blood, snapped into 3 pieces either side.. as I tried to walk towards Visoth in all my anger, I kept stumbling... my breath was heavy and the air felt so damp... "one more step" I said to myself, with the intention of smiting this so called angel to smitherens.
I mustered all my strength to try an deliver a fatal blow, and just as I lift my fist to strike him... Darkness. The next thing I knew, i was laying on a soft material familiar material, much like the ones we have in heaven. I slowly opened my eyes, and found myself in complete light, 'What's this i thought to myself?'.
my whole being was submerged in light, i darted my eyes around and there was no shadows, no darkness nothing, but pure light. As I tried to lift my body up to view my surrounding, excruciating pain went throughout my body...I screamed out so loud, it echoed through the air. "GET BACK DOWN" I heard a strange voice say, " You're in no condition to do anything, visoth has done quite a great deal of damage to you..." the voice said.
"I must get back up! I need to help protect Gaz, I'm part of him, I can't be separated..."
"Calm down Estalious!" another voice said,
"Gabriel? is that you?"
"Yes, and your in trouble now, you let anger and murder get into your mind during your second chance!"
thoughts ran through my head, but more than that, regret. I can't go back to being a demon...
"But... you're lucky, The Creator has said, that you may return to your Gaz, as soon as your well again"
I felt relieved, and smiled. Somehow though i was in extreme pain, I felt comfort and peace, I took this time to recover as my small gap of peace throughout the rough storms that i have been.
"Gabriel! can you tell me... how is lizzy?, What did Vis... Visoth... Do..do... to he..er....?" I struggled to ask through the pain in my body.
"look next to you" Gabriel replied pointing next to me.
As I turned my head, *CRACK* I heard something break, My vision became very blured once again, I struggled to even see striaght, as my vision doubled and trippled whilst becoming blurer and blurer, I couldn't make out if she was alright or she was in critical, or was it even her! but in my heart i knew it was her, and just in that moment.*Thud*
*Darkness once again*
Chapter 10: Defending the heart
Fully Restored, Estallious rose again, to find no one around, he went about to seek Gabriel who tended to him, whilst he was injured and hurt. A message was left for him, that Estallious was to leave immediately to look after Gaz Whilst Visoth, had to go off to an important battle that was brewing near by.
Almost immediately Estallious was sucked into a room, the light was gone. Yet Estallious did not know where he was. The walls were white, and there were beeping boxes and other huge boxes with tubes coming out of it attaching themselves to humans. What was stranger were these metal supported soft topped things that people were laying on. Thinking to Himself Estallious said, "This place seems tremendously familiar, could it be? am I in a man made image of Heaven's room to recovery?!"
But there was one important factor that was missing that made it not like the one Estallious was in, it was the fact that the atmosphere of complete serenity and peace was missing, instead anguish mixed in with sadness and greed was in the air. With pockets of hope lingering around here and there.
*Sniff sniff* "Argh, what is this?" Estallious thought to himself.
"Why am I feeling this sadness in my heart? it's as if something precious of mine is losing it's will to exist.."
Turning Estallious found out the source of his sad heart, taken a back, he saw Gaz on his knees crying for a girl that broke his "purity seal". Being quick to judge Estallious became mixed with emotions, thinking, "How could Gaz run back to the one that opened the doors of darkness to him? what was it? how can this be?"
Fearing for the safety of Gaz Estallious tried to reconnect with him again as he did the time he saw Lizzy hurt. "Gaz come on, we can't stay with her any longer, she's no good to you, she took your purity away" Estallious shouted. Again he tried to talk to Gaz "We need to get away from here, it's an evil place, it's not heaven they have blinded you it's a fake image of heaven!".. yet again to no avail, Gaz just sat there motionless with tears continuously streaming down his cheeks.
"You know ..." Gaz Said,
"It's not her fault..."
Estallious amazed thinking that Gaz heard him tried to speak to him again "None sense Gaz it totally ...!"
"It's mine!" Gaz interrupted.
Struck with amazement Estallious decided to hear him out.
"I should have been more careful, I should have watched my tolerance level. But instead I decided to be a fool! full of ego! and came to do something so stupid... So hurtful!" Gaz said in a weak and teary voice.
Estallious sat next to Gaz and put his arm around him, "Here, here buddy... We all make mistakes, heck I made the worste one in heaven! I turned against the creator thinking I was strong enough, when I knew I shouldn't have and was too weak to prevail."
"Whose there?" Gaz exclaimed as he looked around. A sense of comfort has settled in Gaz's heart, he could not comprehend it, a little confused but pleased with this comfort, he asked, "Is that you God? I'm sorry... Forgive me please... and.. Thank you" like a the eye of an hurricane, there was a smile on Gaz's face.
"Gaz.. it's me.." Estallious whispered. With that Estallious realised that Gaz couldn't hear him, filled with a little disapointment he looked to the ceiling of the place he was in, there, a twinkle appeared, like a light far in the night sky...
"I understand..' He whispered to himself,
"there's still hope, and I am glad my creator.."
Almost immediately Estallious was sucked into a room, the light was gone. Yet Estallious did not know where he was. The walls were white, and there were beeping boxes and other huge boxes with tubes coming out of it attaching themselves to humans. What was stranger were these metal supported soft topped things that people were laying on. Thinking to Himself Estallious said, "This place seems tremendously familiar, could it be? am I in a man made image of Heaven's room to recovery?!"
But there was one important factor that was missing that made it not like the one Estallious was in, it was the fact that the atmosphere of complete serenity and peace was missing, instead anguish mixed in with sadness and greed was in the air. With pockets of hope lingering around here and there.
*Sniff sniff* "Argh, what is this?" Estallious thought to himself.
"Why am I feeling this sadness in my heart? it's as if something precious of mine is losing it's will to exist.."
Turning Estallious found out the source of his sad heart, taken a back, he saw Gaz on his knees crying for a girl that broke his "purity seal". Being quick to judge Estallious became mixed with emotions, thinking, "How could Gaz run back to the one that opened the doors of darkness to him? what was it? how can this be?"
Fearing for the safety of Gaz Estallious tried to reconnect with him again as he did the time he saw Lizzy hurt. "Gaz come on, we can't stay with her any longer, she's no good to you, she took your purity away" Estallious shouted. Again he tried to talk to Gaz "We need to get away from here, it's an evil place, it's not heaven they have blinded you it's a fake image of heaven!".. yet again to no avail, Gaz just sat there motionless with tears continuously streaming down his cheeks.
"You know ..." Gaz Said,
"It's not her fault..."
Estallious amazed thinking that Gaz heard him tried to speak to him again "None sense Gaz it totally ...!"
"It's mine!" Gaz interrupted.
Struck with amazement Estallious decided to hear him out.
"I should have been more careful, I should have watched my tolerance level. But instead I decided to be a fool! full of ego! and came to do something so stupid... So hurtful!" Gaz said in a weak and teary voice.
Estallious sat next to Gaz and put his arm around him, "Here, here buddy... We all make mistakes, heck I made the worste one in heaven! I turned against the creator thinking I was strong enough, when I knew I shouldn't have and was too weak to prevail."
"Whose there?" Gaz exclaimed as he looked around. A sense of comfort has settled in Gaz's heart, he could not comprehend it, a little confused but pleased with this comfort, he asked, "Is that you God? I'm sorry... Forgive me please... and.. Thank you" like a the eye of an hurricane, there was a smile on Gaz's face.
"Gaz.. it's me.." Estallious whispered. With that Estallious realised that Gaz couldn't hear him, filled with a little disapointment he looked to the ceiling of the place he was in, there, a twinkle appeared, like a light far in the night sky...
"I understand..' He whispered to himself,
"there's still hope, and I am glad my creator.."
